Every once in a while, I read something on Facebook that hits home. Are you a glass half full or a glass half empty sort of person. As I age, I see my glass emptying. Recently, it has felt as if my glass has a gaping hole in it.
Last night I said goodbye to my pinball and Galaga machines. They had been in my basement for 30 years and have been played by hundreds of kids and adults, including my grandchildren. While they were full of memories, it was time to part with them as Renee and I prepare to downsize. Today, the estate salespeople are in the house cataloging our belongings.
The Facebook post I referred to at the beginning of this post stated that, if your glass was half empty, you should pour its contents into a smaller glass, leaving you with a full glass. I’m trying to do just that. It’s not easy but parting with material goods isn’t really what’s got me down. Leaving you guys is next to impossible.
Yesterday,Jerry and I reviewed my new house’s electrical schematics in the am, I lunched with Pat, and, on the way to the car, bumped into Alice and got a great big hug. In the afternoon, Linda called and set up a lunch. In the mail was an invitation from Lynn and Charlie. Bill, as always, posted something nice on Facebook. As I say goodbye to my patients and transition them into the friend column, I realize how much I’m losing, and I cry.
Then I realize how cold it is. I realize how gray the sky is. I remember how much I hate Chicago weather. I feel how bad the cold is on my joints. I think about how much I miss my grandchildren and my family, all living on the East Coast now.
When life gets you down or is overwhelming and you feel like you are drowning, look for a lifeline. Then grab it and pull yourself out. I moved to Illinois for an education fully intending to move to the outer banks of North Carolina to set up my practice. Meeting Jerry, Pat, Linda, Lynn, Alice, Bill and many others kept me in Illinois. It’s time to complete the circle and settle down in NC. I’ll take all of you with me on this journey. I’ll pack you guys up and carry you in my heart.
And I’ll work on writing more uplifting articles in the future. I’m downsizing to a smaller, full glass and will be happy.
